An Introduction

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This is me. I’m 29, I have two lovely babies, I’ve been married to the most amazing man for five years. I love chocolate, reading too much, and cuddling with my sweet peas. I will do almost anything to avoid doing dishes. We live in a beautiful house in Northern New Jersey with an expansive back yard and we go to church (almost) every Sunday.

Those are the basics I suppose, but it’s not really the whole story. I’m the oldest of a lot of kids, my parents were never married, I was raised in poverty and abused. I used to tell people that my life was a series of catastrophes. Things would be going well, I would have some small measure of happiness and then something would happen to pull the rug out from under my feet and throw me back into darkness.  I decided that God couldn’t possibly exist because if he did, he would never allow me to suffer this way so I became an atheist and decided there was really no point in a moral code, all at the ripe old age of 17. If it weren’t for a series of very specific events in my life I could have ended up in some pretty bad places but God is good and he pulled a few strings to get me living in suburbia with minimal mental problems.

It’s still a surprise to me that life doesn’t hurt anymore. Every day is filled with love and grace from beginning to end and I struggle to accept that. It’s weird, right? All I ever wanted was for life to be simple and easy and now that I have it I can’t believe it’s actually simple and easy. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop; for the terrible, catastrophic thing that’s going to derail my life to rear it’s ugly head and lay waste to my nearly perfect little life.

I spent this past weekend at the Edel Gathering and if you haven’t heard of it, you need to look it up because it’s an amazing thing. 300 women spending a weekend together in a blur of love, fellowship, and crazy shoes, recharging their batteries so they can reenter their lives as inspired crusaders for Christ. I heard so many stories, I laughed and cried and embraced my fellow sisters and came away with some ideas. I felt the Lord whispering in my ear and I think I know what he wants of me. He allowed me to suffer, to go through those refining fires because he was preparing me for this moment when my whole life changed. I had one hell of a time getting to Austin this weekend and it was because the Devil knew something was in the wind.

So here we are, starting a blog, building a community, growing my faith with every step I take. I’ll write about the things I know best: suffering, love, and the best way to ruin your diet (the answer is chocolate). Our family will walk our road to a deeper faith and love in God and you’re welcome to come along for the ride. I don’t know where this road will lead me, I’m sure we’ll go up some mountains and into some valleys, but every mile leads us closer to grace.

 

 

 

 

 

 

2 thoughts on “An Introduction

  1. God has blessed you indeed. You are a blessing to those around you. May you continue to do God’s work and will. It is very special to come from chaos or catastrophe to peace. Nobody’s life is perfect or easy every day of their life, but I am sure that God will bring us through it all. Enjoy every moment with those you love. Spread the love! I believe it is Gods will. Love to all.

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