Hello my friends! We meet again. I spent all last week on vacation with my babies and my hubby and we had an amazing time. The kids figured out how to dog paddle around the pool, in their floaties of course, so Chuck and I were able to lounge in the pool and watch them for the most part.
The trip was partly a long overdue vacation (we hadn’t gone anywhere together in three years!) and partly a celebration of thirteen years of togetherness for Chuck and I. We met when I was 17 and he was 20 and it was love at first sight. There’s a lot of things I could tell you about this amazing man but the most important is that there is no denying that he is a gift and a blessing from the Lord and I don’t know where I would be without him.
In other news, if you haven’t seen Chris Pratt’s speech at the 2018 MTV TV and Movie Awards you are missing out in a big way. You need to watch it RIGHT NOW.
Did you watch it? Good. We can move on now. First of all, the man’s gorgeous. Second of all, how amazing is it to watch a celebrity talk about God with such conviction? It took my breath away. My favorite quote is:
“Nobody is perfect. People will tell you that you are perfect just the way that you are, you are not! You are imperfect. You always will be, but there is a powerful force that designed you that way, and if you are willing to accept that, you will have grace. And grace is a gift. Like the freedom that we enjoy in this country, that grace was paid for with somebody else’s blood. Do not forget that. Don’t take that for granted.”
All the heart eyes emojis. The most amazing part, in my opinion, was the crowd’s reaction. When he said “You have a soul. Be careful with it.” I expected the audience to falter, to quiet themselves, to look at each other and wonder what this was all about. Their enthusiasm for the truths that Chris Pratt put out there warmed my soul.
It takes a lot of guts to stand up in a room and say these kinds of things to a crowd that could be very hostile to the message. I feel like I’ve been witnessing a lot of bravery lately. So many people I look up to and admire are doing things that scare them. Every song I happen to hear on the radio speaks of courage, my favorite radio shows and blog can’t stop talking about overcoming your fears.
Then today, I went to confession. It’s always a struggle for me to confess because of my disastrous first confession and today there was a line to see the priest. Which is totally not fair because there is NEVER a line. After a period of squirming and histrionic prayer I went to go stand in the line. From where I stood I could see the beautiful stained glass in the church and I tried to focus on the pictures to get my mind off of my terror.
Bit by bit, I relaxed and I prayed, “Lord, You are the King of mercy and forgiveness. There is no stain on my soul that You can not clean, no sin that You will not forgive. I may walk through fire to get inside of that confessional but at the end of all this, I will be healed. You will help me through this because You want me to return to You.” As soon as I finished the prayer the woman in front of me started chatting me up. Normally, I try to wiggle out of small talk as quick as I can but, because I was trying to be brave, I decided to engage her and we had a nice little chat about our babies and pregnancies and by the time she entered the confessional I was completely at peace. I looked back up at the stained glass with a smile on my face.
God NEVER abandons us. He never leaves us to flounder on our own. All He wants is to be invited in, to be asked to take a part in our struggles. Someone once told me that God is a gentleman, He doesn’t come in where He isn’t wanted. I was struggling with fear and anxiety over my confession and as soon as I asked for His help, it was given. Without hesitation, without condition. Our Lord is amazing.
So now I’m living in a state of grace and it feels pretty great. If you haven’t been to confession in a bit, consider this a friendly reminder that it is AWESOME.
Is there anything that’s scaring you? Do you have any great confession stories? Let me know in the comments! And don’t forget to link up with me on social media!